August 27, 2013

date night via iphone.

^^^unintentional cleavage

because he is the best:
after a long day of school, jordan treated me to dinner, a long stroll down center street, krispy kremes, and breakfast at tiffany's. but then we wanted to watched mad men instead.
when you come at it from the right angle, provo isn't so bad. there are a lot of good places to eat, (very important) a lot of cute corners of town, and if you look really hard, there are a TON of good people. good friends just waiting to be found. waiting to enrich your life & help you stay grounded and work hard and recognize where you're slacking, without telling you out loud.
i have struggled with the culture here, but was reminded on sunday that our heaven is where we make it. wherever we decide to build a life and have a good attitude, there will be home. it's time to do that in provo--forget the bad & focus on all the growing jordan and i will do here. it's going to be a good year. :)

August 21, 2013

on being better.

last night, jordan and i sat in our bedroom and talked to one of his mission companions that recently returned home. he was still so pure, so sweet, & so full of the spirit.
i had a realization during the conversation: jordan and i need to be better. we have a great relationship, and this past (almost) year we have built a beautiful life together. but we need to work a little harder, be a little better.
we need to clean up our language, always have a good attitude, and work on never missing prayer together. we need to be better examples to those around us, we need to look for opportunities to serve, we need to strive to always carry light with us.
i often find myself in a state of limbo between accepting myself and pushing myself, my greatest paradox in life. but right now, i see a wonderful life around me, and i know i can rise to a higher standard.
& in these times of wanting to step it up, i am especially grateful for a companion who wants the same, who has a better resolve than i do, and pushes me to be my best and expect my entire effort.
"your decision to think right, choose right, & do right will rarely if ever be the easiest course to follow." -thomas s. monson

August 16, 2013

a forced smile.

i work as a receptionist for a software company in salt lake city.
the office is incredibly posh and modern and beautiful. the workers are mainly engineers, and well, very much the engineer type. (they are sweethearts but terribly awkward.)
i answer phones, have guests sign nda agreements, greet everyone on their way in and out, and pretty much cruise the internet/read in my free time.
it's a pretty cushy gig, and that pay's not bad either. (for a college student.)
i've had a few friends mention that they could never be a recpetionist, because we are expected to be cheerful and chipper all of the time. and they are right.
as the first face everyone sees every morning, and the first voice every one hears on the phone, it's my job to be cheerful and sweet and patient. and it's not always easy.
but it is so great.
if i woke up late and spilled on myself and am stressed out, i don't have the option of brooding behind a desk all day, my mood marinating.
fake it 'till you make it? that's real stuff, and 9 times out of ten, by 8:15 i have turned my bad mood around--by the simple act of smiling and chirping 'good morning' 5 or 6 times.
i wonder if this attitude can translate. if we expected outselves to be happy and cheerful, how often could we pull ourselves out of our bad moods + slumps + morning grumps? how much of our bad moods/bad days are just ourselves reacting poorly to circumstance? 
and if we can pull ourselves up and bring light into our own lives, how often could that light do good for someone else?

August 12, 2013

5 things.

on saturday, after a week full of stress and dissapointments, we went to the fair to cheer ourselves up.
im pretty sure the monster truck ride alone did the job.
snapchat has become one of my main forms of communication.

going through hawaii pictures & missing the hi life.

getting letters & pictures from ashlyn.
this is her + her cute mtc companion

our next six weeks of life is going to be
vacations, moving, school starting, birthdays, a big anniversary, and saying farewell to some of my best friends as they start new adventures across the country.
i'm a little overwhelmed, but super excited! i love craziness in some weird, masochist way.

August 9, 2013

i like the part at the end where you get to play dead.

yoga at the grand america part deux was even better than part un.
we practiced outside in a windstorm, with a teacher that encouraged giggling and yelled words of encouragment at us through his microphone, over the noise of the wind. everyone's mats kept blowing away, and it seemed we all simultaneously decided 'forget this' and ditched them for the (damp) grass.

we're not that great at the 'group poses' ^^^

i think we can all agree that shavasana is the best part ^^^

August 8, 2013


harry potter celebrated his 33rd birthday last week.
madi & her family threw a party in his honor that included wand-making, hp charades, and a sorting hat. (i was not pleased about getting put into ravenclaw. proof below.)
besides that little episode, it was a magical (heeehee) time. especially when a spontaneous dance/rap session broke out. it was really sweaty and really fun.
i was inducted into the realm of harry potter freak-dom a little over a year ago when i read all the books & watched the movies over the course of a few months.
it's really great, & long live hp!

if ever there were a picture to sum up my friendship with these girls, this would be it ^^^^


August 7, 2013

um, barf?

the other night, in a moment of pure stupidity, i said to jordan--"let's do one of those baby morph things!"
he put up a couple of our wedding photos, and this is what we got:
we're both white, so what?!? also, ew?!!???
on an unrelated note, i think we're going to wait a few years to have kids.

girls night part II.

it all started with hot dog on a stick.
madi said, "can i have that thing that's hot dog, cheese, hot dog, cheese, and then deep fried?" the funny hat lady told her politely that the heath code didn't permit them to offer that anymore.
laugh out loud.
the night ended at taco bell (naturally) and in between included photo booths, rooftop concerts, life conversations at the duck pond, a giant spider, twerking, and some uninentional nudity.
good girlfriends--ones that make you want to be better, ones that accept you for the deep flaws you have, ones that you crave being around, ones that you feel totally yourself with, ones that you can act like youre 13 with & they think it's totally hilarious--you hold on to those ones. across marriages, missions, and state borders, you hold on to them.

{quote of the night goes to madi--"you guys, life is weeeiiiirrrd."
that it is.}

August 5, 2013

surprise date.

jordan surprised me with a date to the salt lake public library this weekend.
he knows me pretty well. i feel right at home surrounded by books, and it doesn't hurt when the sl library looks like this:

we read and whispered and explored and told jokes and acted like kids in love. and technically, we are :)
then we wandered downtown (i heart you, salt lake) & ate pf changs while discussing politics and what it means to have a good "company culture." we have the most random, stumulating conversation. my husband is a thinker, and he's helping me be a thinker, too.
then we ended the day with 2 pints of ben & jerry's and a boy named harry in a chamber of secrets.
i don't think surprise dates get much better than that.

August 1, 2013


so, really..who doesn't like talking about themselves? here goes: (ps--thanks for the tag, ashley. you're a doll!)

  thank your liebster blog award nominator on your blog 
and link back to the blogger who presented this award to you. 
 answer the 11 questions from the nominator, list 11 random facts about yourself,
and create 11 questions for your nominees. 
 present the liebster blog award to other blogs of 200 followers or less who you think are rad 
 copy/paste the blog award on your blog.

11 randoms:

+the day i met my husband, i rushed past him to go throw up after my workout. i didn't hear him ask for my name, and somehow that story got a happy ending. 

+ i have an ear fetish. i love to touch & bite--especially baby ears. mmmmmhmmmm.

+one time,  ate 2 baconators on a date. & yes, it was our last date. 

+ speaking of bad dates, i broke my arm on a roller-rink date in high school. he thought i was faking it,
 & i had to wake my mother up when i returned home so she could drive me to the ER. 

+ you know at the movies, those mini concession stands that are hidden back by the theaters? i think they are the cutest! whenever we pass one at the movies, it makes me excited. it stems from this obsession with hidden things--houses tucked behind corners, neighborhoods hidden behind big oak trees, and obviously this is too long of an explanation for me to get into right now.

+dream vacation? thailand. why? buddhism. it's fascinating.

+ no matter where i live, the library there will always feel like home. #myhappyplace

+i've gained 2 new loves since being married: country music & weight lifting. who knew. 

+ last december, i gave myself a black eye (and quite possibly a broken nose) by running into a pole in our parking garage. and by some miracle, there was no profanity. (out loud..)

+ i love shooting guns, but have this weird mental thing called every time i am holding i gun, i think omg i could shoot up this place and kill everyone right now! i mean, i dont....but i have that though every. single. time. (also see--driving next to a drop off)

(i stole a few of these from felica)

natural hair color?

strawberry blonde, reddish. i've been bleaching it since the 8th grade.

favorite place to shop?

jcrew's clearance rack allll day.

something you learned about yourself when you got married?

i'm not as fabulously independent as i thought i was. but on the flip side, i have learned that i have more capacity to love someone so deeply, so permanently, and have their happiness so entwined with mine than i ever thought. and i like that.

top 3 fave baby names?

after hours of discussion and countless suggestions (we're years out from getting pregnant but apparently we need to have the names down) we have decided on evelyn, blair, and boston. (blair and boston will obviously be twins. thanks in advance, god.) ;) a

things that make me gag?

feet & long, dirty fingernails.

go to meal//favorite recipe ?

i was going to skip this one, but i need to be honest with myself. i don't cook. i bake chocolate chip waffles every sunday morning, but other than that we live on protein shakes, cereal, and spinach ravioli from costco. im a horrible wife, but someday i'll learn. (i can make really good crock pot macaroni and cheese though. i'd like credit for that.)

all time favorite movie?

just like everyone else, i don't think i can narrow it down to one. sorry.
amazing grace//king's speech//what happens in vegas//ocean's thirteen//tommy boy//pocahontas

favorite thing about blogging:

journal keeping, writing. i have blogged privately for years, and love throwing ideas and thoughts down on a page. (screen) it brings lifeblood into those thoughts and helps me understand what im thinking. 

something you're passionate about?

my husband//the gospel//the written word//exercise//sleep, glorious sleep!

alright-- i would like karliemadi, and jessica to participate please :)

i picked the questions i wanted answered, + here's a few ideas:

+first kiss?
+guilty pleasure?
+embarrassing moment?
+your idea of the perfect day?