i love making new friends and am constantly on the search for more personalities to enrich my life - but i am so grateful that i have these girls to fall back on. they make me feel like i am succeeding in becoming that person i am striving to be. and i hope to do the same for them. it's interesting how our differences in personality seem to compliment one another so flawlessly. the 4 of us, we're a great combo.
this earth is so stunning - and the more varying scenery i see, the more i am convinced i need to see it all. alaska is incredibly...majestic is the only word that seems fit. it's a little overwhelming, how large scale and powerful the world seems out there. i am thankful i got to experience it. also thankful i went in the warmest month possible. (and it will still. so. cold.)
i am also feeling especially thankful for a husband who lets me be my own person - the kind of guy that says alaska with the girls? i don't want you to miss that, you should go! instead of, you're leaving me to spend our money on yourself? i was so giddy to be reunited with him, i seriously almost peed myself upon landing. oh, i missed that boy. being reunited with him after time spent apart is, quite possibly, the greatest high i get in life. it's glorious.
we got talking later that night about having our independence, and how that's benefited us, both as individuals and as a partnership. i feel very strongly that marriage is better served when you support each other in conquering the world, rather than receding into your own little world. balance is so important - and being a wife to my sweet husband will always come number one, but i need more than simply that to become who i need to be. i see so many girls get hitched and then just disappear into "married life" where they lose touch with friends, lose a lot of their motivation to really go after their dreams, and develop a relationship with netflix. and really, they stop caring about their other relationships because they just have room for one person: husband. and to me, this isn't healthy.
jordan and i have found that allowing each other a little wiggle room (ie, taking trips with friends, joining clubs, letting differing opinions be ok) helps us respect each other as individuals. and then that respect turns into a deeper, more lasting, love and admiration for one another.
i'm glad that jordan lets me have my girlfriends, that he encourages me to work long hours in pursuit of my dreams, that i'm not just his "wife" but rather, i'm kayla - a girl with a lot of ambition and a life plan. he helps push me to achieve, rather than being my crutch. and consequently, i can bring so much more to the table for him as his wife, when i am fulfilled as an individual. it's an upward cycle!
i don't believe in separate lives, and at the end of the day, i actually am fairly obsessive about my boy. but i really feel that our lives have achieved this fabulous balance by allowing one another to be themselves and not be totally defined by marriage.
i am a wife, and it is such a wonderful "hat" or "role" that i am suuuper proud of. but i wear a lot of other hats too - and that makes for a well rounded, satisfying life. although jordan fulfills so many of my needs, he is only human. he can't do it all - and by finding fulfillment in my own successes, my own hard work, my own friendships and personality, i appreciate the myriad of things he provides for me so much more. so...basically this is a horribly long-winded way of saying that i am grateful for this girls trip & grateful for a husband who let me take it. my girlfriends and husband are so great. the end.