September 29, 2015


+ my friend annie's perfectly squishy babe, rosalie.
+ the lantern festival out at bonneville seabase was actually better organized and more magical than i expected - SO WORTH IT. they played "bittersweet symphony" as the we let go of our lanterns and it was pretty dang cozy. (people kept letting go of their lanterns too early and they would run into people. we didn't see anyone's hair catch on fire so we were allowed to laugh.)
+ my cute birthday boy with his yearly request, costco chocolate cake.
+ ashlyn and i getting my birthday pedicure, and wearing matching outfits at the fair, because we're sisters and i think it is adorable of us.

 + one of my favorite birthday wishes from daniel. anybody else miss the rainbow barf snapchat? why do they keep changing them?
+ we have resumed our REAL game obsession. in this game, i witnessed a head-bump goal & it was epic.
+ chalk the block is one of my favorite provo events - i thought this was the coolest one!
+ my cute friend kylie at an exhibit opening. she does marketing and pr for the BYU moa and she NAILED IT. love this lady.
+ when we asked a stranger to snap the top left photo, we asked her to please get the ferris wheel in the picture. this is what we got. oh, well. 
+ the salt lake italian festival (that gelato, ohhh my) with my girl kirsten.  
+ my polaroid got obliterated in san francisco this summer, but my MIL got me a mini for my birthday. this was the inagural photo i sent her! 
+ a top of the ferris wheel selfie. 

+ my utah state kitties at a bridal shower for madi. these girls are my people.
+ a sunday drive up to guardsman pass! LOOK AT THAT YELLOW. look at the yellow scattered in with the pine trees! i don't know if those views will be beat this year. i was so pleased - i'm going to miss this next year!

September 22, 2015

"the newsroom" - also beyonce is queen.

some thoughts - in no particular order, of very little significance, and having almost nothing to do with each other:

+ the pope is landing in DC today. i logged almost 12 hours worth of video preparatory to his visit over the summer, typing up dozens of interviews about his life, his policies, how he has paved the way for a new age of catholicism. i love that he grew up in poverty and can speak to it's effects, and i love how sweet he is without shying away from tough love. although john paul may always be my favorite pope, francis trails closely behind. i'm looking forward to hearing what he has to say to congress.

+ our RS lesson this past sunday was on pride, & it was one of those lessons where pretty much all of it was directed at me - the reminder to care most about what god thinks of me, and to stop obsessing over what others think could not have come at a better time. this talk that lesson was based on is pure and solid GOLD.

+ i started watching the HBO show "the newsroom" for my case studies class - despite some bad language, that show is amazing, i mean it. besides "good night and good luck" i think it's the best entertainment piece we have surrounding TV journalism. i have watched the first 8 minutes of the first scene of the first episode at least a dozen times and it still gives me chills. (go find it on youtube!) the inner workings of network TV are so fascinating and, i guess i get really attached to the idea that a few people can make a dent in the problem that is privatized news. anyway, that's a little rant that probably nobody cares about - but i guess what i'm trying to say is that journalism and news gathering and the democratic process gives me LIFE.

+ i *accidentally* snapped at one of our IT guys the other day. he was trying to inform me about how "banks tell you that jordan will only work 70 hours, but just you wait" & "i bet he never works an hour under 80 for the rest of his life" i just put up my hand and said, "look. i appreciate what you're trying to do here, but i promise you that we have done more research than you, and i have a better idea of what we're getting into than you." an observer of the conversation started laughing and commented that SURELY, it wasn't my first time getting a "warning." but really, why does in IT guy think he can tell me what banking life is like?? how would he know?! why do people do this?? it's super rude and also they have no clue what they are talking about?? i put my sassy pants on REAL FAST whenever people do this. i don't get it. BYE FELICA. (a little behind on that one, i know.)

+ i have been toying with the idea of shutting this little blog down, at least for a little bit. i sometimes feel like i am losing my ability to be introspective and to be fully aware of myself - my feelings, my goals. it's really easy for blog writing to take a front seat while my personal journal, full of the dirty details, is cast aside. and in my quest to be more in touch with myself, i think closing this little space for a while could help by forcing me to share my thoughts with only myself.

+ i didn't watch the emmy's because we watch fear the walking dead, but i liked this article about amy poehler and i would just like to say that leslie knope is the most incredible fictional character to exist outside of hermione granger. and that is the gospel truth.

+ i get that taylor swift is cool, and i even would call myself a fan. but this is not taylor's world. IT IS BEYONCE'S. and how dare any of you suggest otherwise.

+ the air is turning crispy and delicious and every morning when i leave the house, it bites my ankles and the tops of my ears. i can almost HEAR the leaves turning yellow (sounds like a crinkling noise, but also like coldplay playing in the background) and FALL IS APPROACHING!! GET PUMPED!

September 18, 2015

25 years old.

yesterday was the big 2-5. gosh, doesn't that feel monumental? a quarter of a century. my life (i'm hoping, i would like to die fairly young) could be a third of the way through. my 20's are half over. gah!

as i usually do on my birthday, i got a little hard on myself yesterday within my own head. i let those voices run wild, you know the ones. they ask you why you haven't graduated yet, or shouldn't you have a hold on some of those bad habits by now? they laugh at the insecurities that still plague a lot of your life and remind you of the relationships that have weakened since you turned 24. "so-and-so didn't send you a birthday wish, what did you do there? friend x took you to dinner last year, and this year she barely remembered to snap you - that's probably your fault." they taunted me all afternoon, and by the time i got in the car to head home, the voices boiled over into a steady stream of tears.

twenty minutes into the drive, i realized how silly (read: stupid, dramatic) i was allowing myself to be. i remembered one of my favorite quotes - "i am learning every day to allow the space between where i am and where i want to be inspire me and not terrify me." by the time i arrived home, i had pulled my shiz together enough to enjoy the thoughtfulness jordan had put into my day.

a candle-lit cupcake pre dinner snack (haha) was waiting for me, along with a card that made me cry and, as requested, a BUNCH of birthday balloons. jordan deviated from my birthday list by gifting me a bathrobe (he remembered how much i loved the ones at the grand america) and a collection of old-time movies. (how he remembered that my favorite doris day movies are the one with rock hudson and not cary grant, i have NO idea.)

we enjoyed the sunset over some in n out, met up with family for a birthday cake milkshake, and then finished off the night by watching an audrey hepburn movie. i know most of social media is clogged with "my husband is the greatest, we are soul mates, how did i get so lucky blah blah blah..." but REALLY. this guy is a gem and a half and his thoughtfulness makes me feel like a million bucks! i am SO freaking grateful for him.

i don't know if i'll EVER see a birthday come around - and have my life be what i expected in that moment. i probably won't ever totally defeat every bad habit and insecurity that comes around, and surely i will never accomplish everything i wish i could. but i hope i feel, like i do now, that i am on the path that's best for my life, and i hope that wherever i am, that i am recognizing everything to be grateful for, amid all of the imperfection. (is this paragraph an after school special yet? good heavens.)

and a big THANK YOU for all the birthday wishes via social media, text message, & voicemail yesterday. feeling loved by so many people around the world is really, the pinnacle of existing for me.

September 17, 2015

our san francisco photos.

because kirsten is really good at taking photos, & somehow she made these pictures look great despite my bad hair day + menopausal breakouts. because SF is the most charming city and this summer there was nothing short of amazing. because i never want to forget how enamored i was with our neighborhood and that bay. because mount davidson feels like the pnw in the middle of california, and because (after a lot of prayer) jordan officially accepted his return offer from citi and we will be moving back to san francisco permanently next year.

September 15, 2015

anniversary celebration.

the saturday before our anniversary, we sprung for a night at the grand - it's on our utah bucket list and this was the perfect excuse! we checked in almost the second we were able to, jumped on the bed, tried on the robes, you know - and headed to dinner.

we spent our meal discussing all the of adventures and accomplishments of our last year of marriage - we worked A TON, but we have packed in a LOT of fun, too. this last year was certainly a year of growth for our marriage, and added more depth to our relationship that the first two years didn't. we made big decisions, moved to a brand new city and killed it, and then made even more big decisions. i pretty much want to punch anyone who uses the term "power couple" about themselves - but i feel like we are becoming a pretty stellar team.

that night i let jordan watch his tivo'ed byu game (because i am a good wife) and the next morning we ordered room service breakfast. (it was heinously expensive, so i was expected a pretty impressive spread of food, but instead 5 mini pastries and a tiny fruit plate were wheeled in. haha!)


our actual anniversary landed on tuesday of that week. last year, we took a trip to NYC for our anniversary, so on the actual day we just got in n out and watched the sunset. (the classic stastny date.) since we had most of the day free, we preluded our in n out date with a sundance picnic.

and that concluded anniversary celebrations, so we started birthday celebrations the next day :) i love september!

September 10, 2015

utah so far.

everything has fallen into place pretty comfortably for us since moving back to the behive state - we settled into a little two bedroom that, although it can't compare to our SF digs, is significantly better than our last provo apartment. we both got the academic overrides needed to graduate this semester, and my old job called and offered me my old desk back - the summer receptionist quit pretty much the same day we moved back. everything just kind of meandered into it's correct spot so that life could crawl forward without a hitch. everything has been peaceful and cozy, i have no complaints.

the first weekend back was spent up in logan and brigham city with family. after a summer apart, it was so nice to be together again! we failed at the family selfie, but our sibling selfie ended up on point.

i love them.

one of the BEST parts about having ashlyn living near is that at she will pick up the slack for jordan as far as "girly activities" are concerned. example number one, yoga at the SLC library. (poor jordan despises yoga, haha)

we finally made it to "bloods lake" one afternoon. once we reached the lake, we ended up being the only ones there. we sat on a log and soaked up the silence - our life is rarely quiet and it felt s'dang good to be in the middle of nowhere, even if it was only for like 20 minutes.

we made it to the payson temple, & it was just as glorious as everyone said it would be.

other adventures we have enjoyed:

finding rooftop views like this one

hitting up swiss days for some sick food and cute shopping

driving up provo canyon every free second we get 

taking sunday walks up our block to the temple

eating all the utah valley food

 and kissing on tandem bikes

utah, thanks for the cushy welcome.